Over recent weeks my moods have been improving and the anxiety levels dropping. This also means I am thinking about what I want to do and more importantly, who do I want to be. I am not the same person I was two years ago which is okay as I don’t want to return to being that person. However this time can be scary as it brings adjustments for myself and those around me.
I have noticed that the relationships with my family, friends and work colleagues are transforming. For the past 18 months my employees have got to know me as the person who sometimes struggled to get to the office and through the day. Now my brain is working better I am often coming up with new ideas that I want us to put into action. This takes adjustment from everyone as they haven’t seen this side of me before.
It has also been a hard time for my partner. He has been highly supportive and carried a big load both at home and in our business. Now that I am more like who I used to be, our relationship too is going through a transition. Luckily I am blessed with a strong understanding partner who provides me with the love, care and space I need to find my own way.
Now that I can start to think more about the future plans, I am trying not to be in a hurry. I don’t know exactly what I want to do or be, and that can be a little scary. However I am certain that if I keep my mind open I will find a creative outlets that will satisfy my needs as well as allow me to use this experience to help others. So, I keep telling myself to be patient, don’t worry and let life happen. Everything is already as it should be.