Why fast-track decisions?
In my last blog I talked about using anxiety symptoms to fast-track the decisions to make changes in my life. Interesting while my partner and I were travelling in Europe and Japan during the month of September, the only time I experienced anxiety symptoms was when we were in a room full of strangers surrounded by lots of noise and conversation.
However on my return home I have again had a couple of instances of painful cramps in my ribs. I am also having the milder anxiety sensations that occur in my head and body.
Recently a friend asked me about these lesser sensations and for the first time I was able identify the cause, and to describe them. They occur when I am over-stimulated; that usually happens when I have been around too many people for too long and worked too many hours.
That’s when my head gets that thick feeling like I have had too little sleep while my body feels like it has had far too much coffee. My solution to this is to have a quiet rest and later a glass wine.
Anxiety – I’d had it all along.
I now also realize that I have actually been living with these sensations for many years. The difference back then was that I was younger, had a drive to achieve and the stamina to push through.
For many years when working in sales, then recruitment and later establishing my own business, this strong drive to be successful meant that each and every day I put myself into situations that stretched my boundaries while working very long hours.
Enough is enough!
On reflection I am no longer surprised that my body has said – enough! It’s time to take it easy. Also I am getting to realize that my situation is common but simply not disclosed.
I work and live in a city where working long hours is seen as the measure of success and people feed their ego using this indicator of success. Why? Life shouldn’t be this hard. Fortunately due to my mindfulness training, I can now do something about it.